Your purpose in life is to...find your purpose?

Recently, I stumbled upon this saying, something supposedly said by Buddha.  There are 3 notable things about this saying as it pertains to this post.  1.  I’m not Buddhist  LOL  2.  The saying is not from Buddha  (you mean everything on the internet isn’t true?????)   3.  It started me thinking about what kind of inspiration, if any, people are drawing from this “quote” that’s causing them to share it so much.  Of course, I have no way of knowing what it inspired in others, but I’m here today to talk about where the fake saying took ME.

I DO think every person is born with a purpose.  I’m Christian, so I believe it’s a God-given purpose, and I think we are most definitely supposed to not only discover that purpose, but fulfill it.  Hopefully it won’t take our whole life, though. LOL  Hopefully, we will find it early enough that we can spend many years working out our calling, living out our purpose. I think fulfilling one’s purpose brings a kind of contentment that few other things in life can provide. It’s a sort of sweet spot, and if you’ve been there before, you know how badly you want to get back to it and basically LIVE there:)

During the last couple of years, I’ve spent a lot–like A LOTTTTTT– of time wondering about my purpose, wondering if it’s one specific thing or if it can be more than one, and wondering if it changes as we grow and age and mature.  To this day, I don’t have answers to any of those ponderings, but I THINK I know of at least two purposes for my life.  One is to feed the hungry. That’s a burden I’ve felt for quite some time, and I’m already on that road, hoping to do more and more as time goes on.  But it’s the second calling that’s a little harder to work out. It’s something I’ve been wrestling with since my father died in December of 2015.

My dad was one of the greatest men I’ve ever known.  He was brilliant, funny, kind, strong, dedicated, and he left a profound mark on those who knew him.  At his funeral, many stood up and told of the ways he’d touched their lives, things even we (his family) didn’t know about.  He never told us. He just went about his life doing good.  What a role model!

Well, when he passed away, I began to struggle with my writing. I wanted to write things that matter to…someone, things that would leave a good mark on others.  A few months after he went to be with Jesus, I wrote The Empty Jar, my favorite and most meaningful book to date, and the one I’m most proud of.  Why is it my favorite?  Why am I most proud of it? Because it mattered to me and it mattered to others.  It wasn’t a big seller for me, but that wasn’t the point. The point was to share something of ME that touched someone else.  And if it touched only one single reader…well, then it would be worth it, more worth it than that all the dollars in the world.  I was SO FULFILLED after writing and releasing that book!  

 

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Fast forward to now. It’s almost a year later (I published TEJ on May 6, 2016) and I’ve written several books (only two of which I’ve published, one of those being a novella), yet I haven’t felt fulfilled since I finished The Empty Jar.  It’s like my soul longs to tell a different kind of story, stories that are far deeper than romance, stories that are about REAL love and REAL sacrifice and the REAL strength of the human spirit.  I’ve tried to settle back into my old routine, but I just can’t do it.  It’s like my chair holds the imprint of a person I no longer am, like I don’t fit in it quite the same way anymore.  I’m meant for something else. I just don’t know exactly what yet.  And, yes! In case you’re wondering, it’s so frustrating!  

 

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So what’s my point with this rambling post?  

I don’t know. LOL  

I just wanted to tell y’all, my amazing and wonderful and loyal readers, what I’m struggling with so you’d know why I’m not shouting about a new release or revealing a yummy cover. I’m not dead or becoming a vampire or flying to the moon.  I’m just…waiting.  I know many of y’all are, too.  Waiting ON ME!  And I’m so sorry I don’t have something for you–a book, a date, anything at all that’s concrete.  Why?  Because, honestly, I don’t know what’s down the road for me, what my next story will be or when it will come.  I don’t know much right now.  I only know that I’m supposed to wait. I’ve been praying so, so hard about it and I keep getting that same answer/non-answer–WAIT.  I don’t know what I’m waiting for–a story line, a new direction, a bolt of lightning.  I only know that He’s telling me to wait, so I’m waiting.  I’m trying to do it with grace and patience, but lemme tell ya, as the world’s most impatient person, this is particularly hard for me. hehe  But I’m doing it!  

I.

AM.

DOING IT!

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(Let’s take a moment here to enjoy the gorgeousness of that ^^^^^^)  *swoon*

I truly believe that one day soon, I’ll be back on here to tell you about an amazing new story I’m working on, and I truly believe it will be part of my purpose, and that I will feel fulfilled again. I have faith that I will write what springs from my heart, and that it will reach out and touch someone else’s.  I believe THAT is my purpose–to write things that move and inspire and heal. It makes me so happy to even THINK of it!  But I’m not there yet, so until that moment comes, I’ll be over here, rocking in the corner.  

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Just kidding:)  hehe  I’ll be smiling and laughing and living each day with gratitude and hope, because THAT is how we wait!

For those who want to know what happens next, I’ll post an update when I have one. Fingers crossed it won’t be long!

And for those who don’t…

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hehehe  Kidding:)

Have an amazing day, and if you have a story to share about finding YOUR purpose, slap that baby on here! I’d love to hear about it, and, chances are, someone else will, too:)

All my love, 

M

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p.s.  If you haven’t read The Empty Jar, but wanna, here are the links to it:

Amazon: http://smarturl.it/TheEmptyJarAMZ

B&N: http://smarturl.it/TheEmptyJarBN

iBooks: http://smarturl.it/TheEmptyJarIB

Kobo: http://smarturl.it/TheEmptyJarKobo

Attention Like the Sun

A new year is fast approaching. Lives will be reflected upon, mistakes and shortcomings will be realized, resolutions will be made. I’m not immune to that. I’ll be doing it, too. I do it every year. In fact, I do it multiple times a year. LOL Yeah, I think too much. 

Anyway, I started thinking about the things I’d like to do differently next year, both internally and externally. I won’t bore you with my career goals or my health and fitness goals (those are probably just like a bajillion other peoples’, LOL). I just want to tell you about one of my personal “Michelle” goals. One of my top priorities for 2017 is to do something GOOD, at least one thing for one person, every single day. It could be anything–helping someone at the store, listening to a stranger chat about his woes, gifting a book, sending a card to someone who needs a lift, praying for someone I don’t know–but I want to help someone in some way every single day of forever. That’s the kind of life I want to live. It’s the kind of person I want to be. That train of thought got me thinking (there is that pesky thinking thing again) about how I want to make people FEEL. 

When I look back over the last year, I remember tons of good. I’m blessed that I CAN remember good. But, unfortunately, there is also quite a bit of not-so-good. I remember seeing so much ugliness out in the world, especially on social media (and we all know how I feel about social media to begin with). That started me thinking about what it feels like to have someone’s attention turned toward you. It can be good or bad. I don’t believe it can be neutral. People will either feel better for having interacted with you, or they’ll feel worse. We all bring SOMETHING to everyone we meet, every day. Good or bad. It has to be one or the other, definitively. This year, I’ve seen many instances where I’d be willing to bet that certain kinds of attention probably felt like having hell fire raining down on someone’s head. I don’t like drama, so I usually have no idea what’s going on, but I see the fallout. I see the hell fire. That brought to mind how I want people to feel when MY attention is turned toward them. 

GOOD. 

HAPPY.

BETTER.

That’s how I want people to feel when they interact with me.

I want to be the type of person whose attention feels like sunshine–warm and happy and positive. When I chat with someone online or reach out to someone via text or email or a quick phone call, I want them to feel GOOD about hearing from me. I want to leave their life a better place, even if it’s just for a few minutes. Life brings enough turmoil and disappointment and hardship without me adding to it. I want to be a bright spot.

This is sort of like my mission statement. I hope the life I’ve lived thus far hasn’t been TOO far from this, but either way, this is my goal now. I hope to see you out there in 2017, and I hope that you’ll be able to truthfully say to yourself that I’m doing what I set out to do, and that you are left with a smile or some happy, positive thought after running into me:)

I hope y’all had a wonderful Christmas and that 2017 will be your best year yet!

Dashing Through the Snow is LIVE

Need some fun to brighten up the holidays?  Need some heat to warm up the cold nights?  Well,this is just the thing.  DASHING THROUGH THE SNOW, a sexy, snowy Christmas story is LIVE!

 

 

A dash of perfect for the holidays!

Dilyn Hart hates Christmas, so when her boss (and ex-boyfriend) hands her an assignment to interview champion snowboarder and gorgeous playboy extraordinaire, Dash Grainger, on Christmas Eve, she takes it. There are several things she doesn’t plan for—a surly driver, a chalet in the middle of nowhere, a freak snowstorm—but the biggest surprise of all is Dash himself.

Dash Grainger lives for the high, and so far in his twenty-six years, he’s never met anyone or anything he loves more. Nothing has ever thrilled him as much as slick snow, cold air, and breakneck speed.

Until he meets Dilyn.

But one perfect night doesn’t mean clear, blue skies the next day. Some storms can’t be weathered.

Christmas might just be one of them.

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